Do you know why I made love with you that night
It’s not the charm of your face that I fell for but the beauty of your movement
Like a teenage kid waiting for me outside my office
Waiting to see me how I am, how I look
Resisting to touch me
But trying to feel me as much as you can
At first, I found it creepy
I still do
But after we had that ice cream in the corner house
As we started to walk
That’s when I knew
I was falling for you
I wonder if it was a desire or deprivation
I see myself being and juggling between need and deprivation
I don’t know what it is
I didnt ponder over that thought when I was with you
It was as if I was dissolved in your universe
It was the walk I longed-for rather than sex
It was the walk on those dainty old houses and shady tress and parks in the corner of each residential locality
It was that walk that made me feel
To be beside you
To feel you
To hear your stories and feelings
And when you wanted to hold me, grab me, kiss me and own me
I didn’t wanted to, not that I am doubtful
But I am reserved in an open space
And, there are people in the streets
Who would glimpse at the events that are extraordinary
How absurd I wonder
To be enslaved by beguilement
How amusing is it for others
A source of entertainment
But everything reduced to molecules
When you held my hand not when you pulled me or kissed me
But when your palm touched mine and when each our fingers crossed each other as if making a knot
There is something about it
I liked the feel of my hands touching you as we walked together that night
I wanted more
I couldn’t resist you
Even if it was for a few micro seconds
I just wanted more and more
Like a kid demanding her mother for more toys
I just didn’t want to give up
I knew, you couldn’t resist either
I wonder what was that attachment
To immerse into one’s shadow completely
As if there is no way out
As if that’s the only space that existed in that moment of time
It’s surreal
For time to collapse into one thing and stay constant
And, there you are waiting to ask me
For more of such moments
To fulfill your lecherousness
As if awaiting time is a deadly sin
You grabbed me into that moment of trouble
As if it’s the final call
And I couldn’t stop either, as I was mesmerized to see what’s within your universe
And as if that’s the only way to know
We made love not out of love but for curiosity and needs
I wonder
What an impelling desire!
Pilotsync 