Just want to escape from everything
Maybe I am weak
So what? If I am
Human adversity seems unending
Feeble I can be
Strong I can be
At times, everything seems to shutdown
Like a spirit fading away
It is Okay, they say
Why did they forget to say, how much is okay and how much is not!
How many times do I have to keep fading away and regain strength
With a false hope of pervasive feeling,
That everything will be fine
I am still Alive!
I wonder! How long does this last?
How many times should I get exhausted and be hopeful of everything
I don’t blame the hope nor exhaustion
I am tired
Of this fallacy
I am tired of reinventing my life
Over and over again
Just to be alive
Just to fulfill the need.
This void seems vast
To keep rekindle joy and experiment one’s potential
To feel nasty pleasure hormones
A irreversible addiction to life
When would this end!
I ask myself 1000 times and answer myself
Only to find pleasure again,
To sleep and wake up tomorrow
To go to work
As if, a blissful ritual appears to be captured only to end miseries of uncertainty.